.:: daemon

thoughts from nowhere

good looks...

one thing im not blessed with...

at best, im only an average looking guy.

i guess.

a few months ago, over ym... me and a friend of mine were talking about something... cant really remember what the topic was all about... but i remember this one statement that she said...

"... you are a catch for anyone ..."

maybe she was just being a friend...
maybe she was really telling the truth...

id like to believe the latter one...

i think im a catch.

im with someone right now... i found someone to love and call my beh...

and im in a happy place now with my beh...

im just wondering... how come other people dont see what my beh see in me?

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i used to be a chatter... still am...

but i dont chat now, for the same reason as i did before... well not most of the times...

anyway...

everyone in "our" community is SUPERFICIAL...

and i would be a hypocrite to say that im not... i am too...

we all have standards, i understand that.

but cant you guys be a little less rude...

as an average "chubby" guy... ive experienced all forms of rudeness...

there are some who will tell it to your face that your chubby...
there are some who will tell suddenly change their story...

and the worst...

there are some who will leave you hanging in the air, the worst kind.

it would be better if they will tel the truth...

"im sorry... im looking for someone who is a bit more on my standards..."

or something to that effect...

it will still hurt... of course its rejection...

but then again... at least they have the decency to be honest with you.

what i dont get is... if im quite the catch... why the rejection?

another scenario...

in the gym... ive met a couple of people here and there... gym-buds and more...

but then... there are those "gym-people" who give you this feeling of you-dont-belong-here...

its like they're telling you to get the fcuk off the gym because youre not worthy to bask in our godly looks...

it annoys me to hell...

all i could really do is stare... and hope that one of them approaches me.

hell, it would be easier to approach them, ask their name, for their phone number... but rejection would be a big blow; rejection in a public place would be death.

which brings me to question my catch-ability factor...

got it?

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im confident.

im chubby.

im an average looking guy.

im a confident, average looking chubby guy...

ive never had any confidence issues...

i have someone that i love...

what is there more to ask?

hmmm...

am i a good catch?