shoulder...

i find it weird...

how people find me as a shoulder to cry on...

an ear to listen to...

a confidant of secrets...

when it counts the most, i can actually keep a secret you know...

but the thing is, i find it all weird...

especially when its all about 'love'...

advices i give are usually home runs...

and hit big with the one asking for it...

how ive come to this is really strange...

considering that im single and loveless...

hmmmm...

in a pathetic attempt to answer my own question...

i guess im feeding off the experiences of others...

im feeding off from everything ive come across...

* sigh *

i still find it weird...

* wonders *

Sa `yo

South Border

ilang ulit kong sasabihin
bigyan mo ng pansin ang puso ko
di mo ba 'to nakikita
masdan mo na,nagmamakaawa

[Chorus:]
ikaw na nga ang hinahanap-hanap
lang ng puso't damdamin
kailan ka magiging akin

ilang ulit kong sasabihin
dinggin mo ang sigaw ng puso ko
kahit konting pagmamahal
araw-araw kong ipinagdarasal

[Chorus:]
ikaw na nga ang hinahanap-hanap
lang ng puso't damdamin
kailan ka magiging akin

[Bridge:]
dapat ko bang isipin
na ika'y di magiging akin
paano na ang puso ko
umiiyak para sa iyo

[Chorus:]
ikaw na nga ang hinahanap-hanap
lang ng puso't damdamin
kailan ka magiging akin

---

i said i stopped chasing dreams...

i guess there still a little bit of hope...

a few more bumps...

a few more bruises...

a little more bravery...

and ill soon tell you how ive been feeling for you

these past two years...

another truth...

so heres the truth...

about me and my behavior lately...

it bothers me that i sort of 'jump' from one seemingly anonymous
guy to another...

i dont sleep with them per se...

i aint promiscuous...

what gets me is that i seem to lose interest in guys i meet quickly...

i should have a 'shirt' that says short-attention-span...

for me, a guy should do alot to keep me interested...

that or the guy has to meet a certain standard to do so...

ok i guess i have to admit...

im high-maintenance...

id like to be treated well...

id like to be chased...

yeah im honest like shit...

so go figure...

when a guy doesnt do that much to keep me interested...

then i know that i dont fit their standard...

it goes both ways...

* sigh *

theres just one guy...

who im interested with...

without him doing anything...

all he needs is to be there...

to be ever present...

any guy has big big shoes to fill...

its hard to make me interested...

but i fall easy...

and when i fall, i fall hard...

...

guess what im trying to say is...

it takes alot to keep me interested...

and having high-standards doesnt really help the matter...

know this, that i fall easy and i fall hard...

* sigh *

brain fart...

URBANITYph...

URBANITYph...

soon online...

mark your calendars...

09-30-09

changing...

its weird how i find myself changing...

im not the MAN i used to know...

lately its as if Im turning into this guy that I totally hate...

contrary to what someone thinks of me...

i am not promiscuous...

i do not break hearts...

i make deep bonds...

i cant promise the sun and stars to the guys i meet...

what i can promise is that...

i will be worth everything...

despite my flaws and all...

daemon is changing...

daemon is changing to a better person...

---

* sings *

you aint seen the best of me yet...

give me time ill make you forget the rest...

* sings *

the week that was...

the past few days have been strangely good...

my life is seemingly going to be more colorful from today...

---

my friday was totally amazing...

felt like i was on top of the world...

i hope everything works out...

my saturday was extremely amazing...

from a botched up interview that totally failed...

do i have to reiterate that IM NOT FOR IT... * lols *

to a quick but powerful and effective 1 1/2 hour workout...

to intimate and fun-filled dinner with my barkada...

to which pics will be up very very very very soon...

getting wasted on my first time in bed malate after 3mos...

it wassssssssssss soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fun...

not to mention the fact...

that...

i met someone...

we'll see where this one goes... =)

all in all....

this week was crazy amazing...

next weekend is marathon week...

have to start training for my new 15k route...

hell yeah!!!

=)

i wonder..

i wonder why it is...

when i decide to move forward...

have a optimistic view about my situation...

heavy rain pours on it...

and it seems that the logical option from here...

is to move a couple of steps backward...

* sigh *

the new sat...

today is my new sat...

today, i didnt go to the gym...

i pigged out on mcdonalds and ate chips...

so...

today is officially my cheat day...

today is my new sat...

fuck it...

i now feel sooooo bloated... =(

that guy

As another sets on...

I cant help but wonder...

When it will be my turn...

Ive had enough being the perennial best-friend...

The go-to-guy...

For once Id just like to be THAT guy to someone...

THAT guy who makes HIM smile...

THAT guy who completes HIM...

---

I know I should not declare this...

But I AM READY...

READY as Ive ever been...

Ive so much LOVE to give, and yet I have no HIM to share it with...

...

I want to be THAT GUY...

I want to be THAT GUY in YOUR LIFE...

Is all of these too much to ask?