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to the one who needs it most...

may angels lead the way back home...

last night....

last night was the lowest of the low...

went out...

thought that it would be relaxing...

pick a coffee place...

park on a soft lounge chair...

take a good book, drink a cold beverage to sooth the prickling heat...

what i got instead was the complete opposite...

* sigh *

though the day wasnt a total waste...

an oppurtunity knocked...

was flattered that i was given that chance...

though i think i "fucked" it up...

it did boost my confidence a bit...

maybe all i need is a chance...

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i hope i get considered for it...

i need the break...

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there is much to be said about this week...

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imagine...

two consecutive nights that ive been pretty much out late...

two consecutive nights that ive gorge myself on tasty tasty treats (s'bucks strawberry and cream and pasta)...

and yet...

i dont have any regrets...

it was nice meeting a lot of new friends...

this is actually foreign to me...

and yet...

i think im going to like this change...

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this short description of how i ended my week doesnt compare to the real thing...

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im running a bit sleepy already...

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guess the story telling has to be done some other time...

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but before i end this...

* toasts *

cheers to change...

random stuffies

what about now

came across this listening to Chris Daughtrys album...

damn boy, does it hit me right on the spot...

thing is, for me, its only a one-sided love affair...

YOU dont even know whats inside me...

im just trying to find the perfect time for me to say what i really want to say...

what about now?

what about today?

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What About Now
Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart

As love is fading 
From all the things that we are 
And are not saying 
Can we see beyond the scars 
And make it to the dawn 

Change the colors of the sky 
And open up to 
The ways you made me feel alive 
The ways I loved you 
For all the things that never died 
To make it through the night 
Love will find you 

What About Now 
What about today 
What if you're making me 
All that I was meant to be 
What if our love never went away 
What if it's lost behind 
Words we could never find 
Baby before its too late 
What About Now 

The sun is breaking in your eyes 
To start a new day 
This broken heart can still survive 
With the touch of your grace 
As shadows fade into the light 
I am by your side where love will find you 

What About Now 
What about today 
What if you're making me 
All that I was meant to be 
What if our love never went away 
What if it's lost behind 
Words we could never find 
Baby before its too late 
What About Now 

Now that we're here 
Now that we've come this far, just hold on 
There is nothing to fear 
For I am right beside you 
For all my life I am yours 

What About Now 
What about today 
What if you're making me 
All that I was meant to be 
What if our love never went away 
What if it's lost behind 
Words we could never find 


What About Now 
What about today 
What if you're making me 
All that I was meant to be 
What if our love never went away 
What if it's lost behind 
Words we could never find 
Baby before its too late 
Baby before its too late 
Baby before its too late 
What About Now

mistake...

when will i ever learn?

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shouldnt have done that...

damn, itchy-fingers...

it was a mistake to see you again...

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guess i spoke too soon...

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* kiligs *

is this it?

has my time come?

* kiligs *

or am i setting myself up for disappointment again...

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"one step at a time, theres no need to rush..."

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no expectations...


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im such a chronic liar...

stuffed...

my head is just stuffed right now...

theres a lot of things that im thinking about...

more than the usual...

now that things have become a bit more clearer...

it just shows how far behind i am...

"just wait... youre time will come..."

one of my dear friends told me...

but ive been waiting for so long...

ive waited for so long...

along the journey, i met someone...

but it turned out that he was just some bump in the road...

and now, im back in square one...

move one step ahead, move two steps back...

story of my life...

song lines...

Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too
'Coz I know you'll never do
Somebody else is waiting there inside for you
Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day
'Coz I know (s)he's here to stay
But my love is strong
I don't know if this is wrong
But I know to whom you should belong..

strangeness

so its a common thing for me to write stuff about "YOU"...

our encounters and such...

lately, it feels a bit different...

now maybe im assuming here...

with "YOU" i always am...

anyway, its been two days...

and as always our eyes keep on meeting...

and it seems that theres something...

i dont know...

but its different...

i really hope that it is what i think it is...

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its your "birthday" in 30 minutes...

at least i think it is...

well whatever... still wanna greet you...

Happy Birthday YOU...

may you have many more...

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i want to say it... but im going to get so many bad reactions from it...

but, you guys know how i feel about HIM...

I...

uhm... i guess ill just hold it...

again...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU!!!

random stuffies...

so ive been quickly browsing over some blogs...

ran across the following...

both apply to me...

just to as how true they are, i dont know...

im hoping they are...

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the first one says about how October born people are...

"Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all. blah, blah..."

and the second one says about how people with hazel-brown eyes are...

"People with hazel eyes are very lovable. They are really hot and are
awesome to be around. They enjoy 'pet names'. They don't care what
people think or say. They are lovers not fighters. But if you mess around,
they'll knock you out.They are real partiers.They are also the hottest of
all. Very sexy people. They are very satisfying and they love to please.
They can exceed your pleasure standards. They are very laid back, chilled
and love to just be around. blah, blah..."

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Anyway, just something to share...

Today was a normal-gym day... nothing really special happened.

Though, it was weird...

I glanced, HE glanced... it was a repetitive cycle...

No words were exchanged, but my glances were enough to send a message across...

I just cant figure out what his glances meant...

* crap *

and to think, its just a day shy away before HIS birthday...

and still i havent finished HIS gift...

makes me really think if i should give him one...

* sigh *