beh moments...

about you

ive been doubting how you really feel about me...

eventhough we've been together for a year and four months now...

i still cant help but doubt you...

maybe that explains why i leave myself open to fall for other guys...

its not an excuse to as how i feel for the other one...

anyway, this blog aint about the other one...

you, somewhat proved that you really love me...

i think... * scratches head *

so... today, we went out...

it was one of those dates where there wasnt any "concrete" plans...

had a good conversation over dinner...

funny stuff...

though i had moments where i could see myself roll my eyes...

just didnt show you...

we then had coffee...

and the good conversation continued to flow...

then silence...

you sipped your hot tea...

i took a bite of my choco-banana cupcake...

then you asked me...

"beh sino pa nag *** sayo?"

a question that caught me off-gaurd...

rolled my eyes, sighed and said... "kaw lang naman... di ka ba naniniwala?"

he begs off to explain why he asked such question...

we reached a point when he said...

"eh nagseselos naman talaga ako eh... di ko alam kung ano ginagawa mo pag di tayo magkasama..."

seeing the way he looked, while he said that...

i can say that he was sincere...

either that or he's just a really good actor...

but from where i was standing, he was sincere...

we stopped the conversation before things get heated up...

i was surpirsed...

its the first time that i heard those words from you...

awed...

rattled...

so you do really love me...

was a bit bummed out after...

we didnt even get a chance to hug, or kiss, or...

the space, the time werent just right...

i miss kissing your lips...

i miss your breathe touching my nape...

* crap *

why does my weekend have to be taken away...

stupid work stuff...

* sigh *

one more week to wait...

hopefully by then we'll make up...

we'll really make up for lost time...

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and oh by the way...

sorry for everything...

belated happy 16th month to us...

I love you baby...