wisdom of love

certain events have forced me think about what 'love' has taught me...

i dont know if most of you would agree...

but the following have been lessons learned...

and just so you know, im no authority on love...

sheesh...

i should be the last one anyone should be running to for advice on the matter...

but, in the short amount of time... this much i know...

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- 'you take risks for the people that matter to you the most'...

- 'never lie to yourself, secrets should never be kept, especially when it comes to matters of the heart'...

- 'forget about keeping your head on top of your heart, nor should your heart be on top of your head... both should work together, always'...

- 'be yourself and never change... never let anyone fall in love with the made-up you'...

- 'friendship, as a basis for love, sucks... well if you're just stuck with friendship'...

- 'never doubt your feelings for someone, doubting only shows that your not totally into the person'...

- 'never expect, never assume... what you know is usually wrong'...

and lately, this seems to be a viable option, though im not really into the whole ONS and FBUDs thing...

- 'hook-ups are a saving grace to heartache'...

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i said i wasnt giving up...

but i think i should...

its become a hopeless case...

great...

there goes another one...

* bangs head on wall *

hopeless romantic...

here i am...

floating on air again...

thinking of what can be...

anticipating....

waiting...

for that moment...

when doubts are gone...

when insecurities don't matter...

when no one else matters...

this is what i strive for...

not money, nor fame...

love...

it is but a jump away...

and yet i am afraid to take it...

fearing that no one will be on the other side...

loneliness has been my biggest fear...

i have been through it...

it has served its purpose in my life...

and i don't need it anymore...

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this is me...

a big part of what makes me, me...

a hopeless romantic...

going my way...

Things Will Go My Way
The Calling

I came to tell you
How it all began
Nothing seems to work out right
I'm broken down again

So hold me now
And say its not forever
Cause maybe someday, in time
Things will go my way

I've pushed to get through
A crowd of twisted souls
Just to find I'm right back here
Doing what I'm told

So take my hand
Don't let me surrender
Cause maybe someday, in time
Things will go my way
Things will go my way
Things will go my way

For all the lies I've tasted
Just loooking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
Well what am I to do
When everything's against me
And the answers are all wrong
I'm hopin' that I find out
It was worth it all along

So hold me now
And say it's not forever
Cause I know someday, in time
Things will go my way
Things will go my way
Things will go my way

For all the lies I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
What am I to do
When everything against me
The answers are all wrong
I'm hoping that I'll find out

Things will go my way
Things will go my way

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it just keeps on coming...

the punches...

* sigh *

failed attempt

so the fashion design competition i joined...

well its a bust..

didnt get in...

* sigh *

guess i need more and more and more practice...

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i know im good... but im not on the level of some people are...

well no yet...

thing thats bugging me is how everyone involved in the competition (organizers) know how pathetic my entry was...

* makes me want to shrink and hide *

so should i push more?

or i give up?

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i say push more...

theres alot more oppurtunities out there...

ill be ready next time...

more than ready...