the night that was...

so i got stood up...

by a straight guy...

a cute one at that...

guess it was all tooooooo good to be true...

now im stuck with a friggin' helmet...

great...

riddled

ok...

so i met this guy...

i would describe him as cute...

he's 5'5,24,has mixed blood (although just 1/16th of it),fair skinned,average to fit body...

lets call him Mr. E

anyway...

its been two nights already... 23rd and 25th, respectively...

the first one, at around 12 midnight...

i met Mr. E at shopwise makati and we hanged out a local bbq place near the area...

then we went for a joyride on his scoot around the village...

Mr. E took me back to my place and hanged a bit more in our garage...

we talked and talked...

from famiy matters to invites to go on a farther joy-ride than makati...
like makati far... =)

finished around 2 am...

the second, we met at around 1130 pm...

we just hanged out in my garage...

Mr. E went here amidst the rain...

and gave me a helmet...

so that he can take me on his scoot when we go out...

talked some more...

we ended at around 1 am...

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now it would have been seemingly perfect if not for the following reasons...

1) he's straight
2) has 3 kid
3) and an ex-wife...

i would have been totally fine with the following...

after all there are lots of cases of guys doing a complete 180-degrees turn...

but the last ones seem to bother me more...

4) he works as a sales staff for a store in Glorietta and MOA

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hes a very good kid, him being cute is just icing on the cake...

but with the cons heavily rotating in my head...

i honestly dont know what to make of it...

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so considering my predicament...

what would you do?

seasons greetings... =)

greeting everyone a merry merry merry merry merry christmas...

hugs and kisses to all...

bothered

i dont know how to say the following in a way that i wouldnt offend anyone...

its just that im bothered...

i dont know...

handling relationships, especially on the level of friendship isnt that hard to do...

all you need is trust...

and belief that your friends have the best of intention for you...

i dont get it why people have to be so negative about every little thing that someone does...

i dont get it why they let themselves be affected by the slightest of things...

its weird...

i never really 'over-analyze' - well not at this level - friendship i mean...

hmmm...

please do consider that im struggling with outing this topic...

i dont have any intentions of hurting someone...

its just that ive been keeping this inside for some time now...

and i just need to let it out...

sorry for this dreary post on such a wonderful holiday...

but hey...

being scrooge...

despite the holiday cheer...

there is this one thing that irks me...

i cant fathom how there are people who freely accept work on a holiday...

i cant fathom how it is when i hear people say 'its in our line of work..."...

fucking retards...

sorry...

I'm just not into the whole working on a holiday thing...

people should learn to work around this month...

no deadlines, no pressures...

its no wonder that they look they way they are...

and also I'm aghast by the fact that some people will go on to continue the vicious cycle...

just because they experienced it in their early years as a developer...

doesn't mean that we have to endure it too...

everyone celebrates christmas...

i cant swallow the fact that people will fore go the holidays in turn for a day in the office...

that's just fucking retarded...

* sigh *

as i write this, I'm in my putting on a fake smile...

the thing that separates me from these fucktards...

is that i don't make work my life...

take my holiday weekdays away you bitches...

but don't dare beg me to go on a weekend...