fact

as the days to christmas gets shorter...

as the cool breeze of the morning air fills the morning...

as the warm rays of the sun takes long to shine on us...

it just gets harder and harder...

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to wake up...

to get up and know that its another day back to normalcy...

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this is me... wishing that the weekend was 3 days long...

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well me and the rest of the working population...

so far...

so'ok, ive been on writing slump for the past month...

this month aint no different, i guess...

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lately ive been going out like crazy...

well not like paris-hilton crazy...

but its more often than i used to...

its more of an every saturday thing...

my feet seems to be 'itching' (among other things) to go out...

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ive been clubbing for the sole purpose of 'meeting' someone...

in the past months that ive gone out...

ive found that that was next to impossible...

makes me question all the hard-work that ive put through at the gym...

hmm...

is it because i dont smile as much?

that or its just that im not 'attractive'?

its weird, how i look forward to clubbing to escape reality...

and yet i dread about going home empty handed...

i know...

i seem to go on forever about this 'situation'...

and the last thing i want my friends to think is how stubborn i am...

but come on...

please please 'indulge' me...

its my reality...

no matter how much friends believe in you...

its how strangers look at me and...

how unlucky a im in the dating department that affects me the most...

i cant be thick-skinned...

not anymore...

not in this aspect...

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sigh...

on a more happy note...

well...

hmm, i honestly cant think of one...

well the most that i can make out of this season are the parties...

its that one thing that im honestly and purely looking forward too...

having a great time with close friends...

theres none much to say in this part...

* bore * boo * bore *

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sigh...

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just to say...

loved the night...

dont know why really...

but this felt different...

nothing really changed though...

but it felt different...

it felt good...

weird...

lines

"There's only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe
Well baby, I'm a put-on-a-show kinda girl (guy)
Don't like the backseat
Gotta be first"

- Britney, Circus

love it...

its sooo bitchy (in a good way)...

and yeah, i belong to the latter... =)

change?

ive been debating for soo long about changing my hairstyle...

i dont know if ill be able to rock "semi-kal" look...

nor would i be able to carry a platinum blonde hair...

i want change...

any suggestions?

im really really leaning on getting a platinum blonde hair...

or at least a shade of blonde...

hahaha...

now this is what i call "lakas-tama"