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Good night everyone...

Need to catch my zzzzz's.

Last night, I was able to catch "The Greatest Game Ever Played" starring Shia LaBeouf on Star Movies.


Its your typical Walt Disney - Underdog to success story. Shia plays real-life underdog (commoner) golf extraordinaire Francis Ouimet. Who despite social / economic barriers won the tourney.

I got to say, Shia has been growing on me.

Ever since I saw him on "Even Stevens", I knew he was one of those rare actors...


I actually got the feeling that he's the male-Hillary Duff.

Been browsing through the net about him and I got to read this profile on a Fan Site, http://www.shialabeouf.us/.

Interesting. Very interesting.
Shia is born, Shia Saide LaBeouf on June 11, 1986. Dads a cajun circus clown and Mom is a jewish american ballerina. Interestingly enough, you would see how this actor got his career start... he browsed through a phone book looked for an agent, called, auditioned and was signed.

Now thats unusual.

One thing that caught my attention was the fact that he has a tattoo on his right wrist that says "1986-2004."
Explaining the tatoo, he quotes "I feel like my childhood was kind of lost. It was adulthood right away. I feel like you forget a lot of your childhood so I put the timeline on my wrist. I just don't want to forget the childhood I did have.".

Very very cool.

Im liking him more already.

List of movie credentials include the upcoming Indiana Jones IV and Transformers, the suspense thriller Disturbia (which Im set to watch, if it is ever played out on the cinema's again), Bobby (to which the cast won an Outstanding Performance by a Cast in a Motion Picture for the Screen Actors Guild and Ensemble of the Year for the Hollywood Film Festival), A Guide To Recognizing Your Saints (to which he won The Best Actor Award in Gijón International Film Festival), Constantine, I, Robot, The Battle Of Shaker Heights, Charlies Angels : Full Throttle, Holes and a couple of more.

Anyway I can say that I'm a fan of Mr. LaBeouf.

He's got this leading-man quality like John Cusack... very subtle... and very serious... yet humble.

Plus, he's a total cutie.

May 05 2007.

This day was supposed to be perfect.

I planned everything out.

What movie we were gonna watch.

Where we were gonna eat after.

How I was suppose to give my gift.

What time we were suppose to meet.

I had a bad feeling that everything I planned out wasnt going to go smoothly today.

And true enough.

It didnt.

I was suppose to meet Bryan in Powerbooks, GB3 at around 5 pm.

I was checking the clock in my room... 3:30. He hasnt texted yet. I was already worried. Thinking of the worst possible scenario.

15 minutes after he replied to my last text... "8 pm tayo meet. Pero mukhang malabo pa.".

- Back story - His dad kept him from going out earlier. Actually its a long story... lets just say it has something to do with US, his family and their being a Born Again family.

I was disappointed. I was expecting the worst.

At around 5:30, I prepared for our date. Fixed my bed, prepared my clothes, took out my new shoes and took a bath.

After, I texted him... "Beh... am dressing up already. Will be leaving in 15 minutes. Where and what time are we going to meet?"

He replied saying that we will be meeting at 8:00 in front of Powerbooks, GB3.

I smiled... at least I know matutuloy kami.

We met at around 8:30 pm. Already cancelled our 9:10 schedule because I know we wont make it.

Unfortunately... we ran a short errand before buying our 9:50 ticket. We arrived at the ticket counter at exactly 9:10 (my watch). The sales person told me that our reservation has been forfeited. For crying out loud... what more could have gone wrong that time. We should have brought our tiket first before doing our errand. =(

We ended up with a 10:20 schedule. Now theres nothing wrong with that. Whats crappy is that we ended up not seating together. I was seated in front of him. Darn it. =(

We decided to have dinner na lang muna.

We went down to Buddha Bar.

Bryan ordered Crispy Noodles and Dimsum... I ordered Braised Beef Rice Toppings.


Anyway... Bryan was wearing these glasses.

He somewhat reminds me of tiggah's pooh. =)

* hay *


Bryan... my very own pooh... =)

During our dinner. I was feeling a bit down because my plan didnt really work out. He noticed it... and all of a sudden he gave me a kiss. In front of a big crowd. I was soooooo happy. =) Of course, who wouldnt be?

We got around to talk about some of our issues... intimacy issues mostly.

He told me that he's at the stage in his life (and in our relationship) where hes finally being comfortable with "WHAT" we are. It just needs time, i thought... and Im sure I can wait.

Its gonna be hard.

But Im gonna wait.

After all... I love him.

At the end of our dinner, I found him writing something on a tissue paper. He handed it to me.

It says
"Dinner date sa Big Buddha...
Super saya at dami na-open up.
Lalo kami napamahal ng beh ko.
Super sarap ng food... dami nga lang... di ko maubos.
Wow. Its our 9th monthsary.
One of the most unforgettable for me.
Love BJ Mendoza"

Not exactly poetry, nor cohesive... in any way.


But its kinda sweet. =)

By the way... I made a stupid mistake in buying our matching rings. Brought 2 sizes smaller for him... crap.Got to go back tom to have it replaced pa.

He appreciated the sweetness though. =)

We got around to watching the movie. Spiderman 3. Really cool movie. Couldve used a bit more action to it. There was a lot of comedy relief... which was welcomed, but really got most of the airtime.

After the movie, we went home. He stayed for awhile.. he couldnt stay for the night (as usual...) though.

Before he left, we hugged each other tightly. It was one of the mos longest hugs that Ive ever had.

I felt that he didnt want to let go. I for sure didnt want to let go.

But he had to go home.

Really bummed out about that.

Its just a good thing that this night, though not what I planned it to be, it was by far one of the best dates we've ever had. =)

Thanks again baby... =)

I Love You sooo sooo much....

Baby...

There are so many things that I want to say... I can... but you wont just hear it...

There are so many things that I wish we could do... we can... but you just dont want to...

But you know what, I can take it...

I can take...

not being able to say the things that I want to say...

not being able to sleep beside you on a cold saturday night...

not being able to hold your hands, hug you or kiss you in public...

not being able to say I LOVE YOU aloud...

I can take all of those, if it means that I can be with you...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH that I can wait...

I have to wait...

Besides, ive waited for someone like you for years...

And if you need more time...

I can give it to you...

...

...

And I just want you to know that Im just around the corner...

Waiting...

For that moment...

When everything will be normal for the both of us...

When we can dance to the tune of a love song where the rest of the world disappears and all thats left is you and me
without any care for the world...

Its been quite some time since Ive blogged.

Alot has happened...

Ive slimmed down (now evident in the loosening of my clothes)...

Ive met people... and burned bridges even before anything happened (which is a good thing i guess)...

Ive made mistakes...

Ive had realizations...

Ive crossed over...

All in one month.

Eventful isnt it?

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Life really has a way of playing with you.

And it sucks...

Just when you think everythings Ok, Life bitch-slaps you to next year...

waking you up...

making you realize that... hey, snap back to reality...

* sigh *

I wish everything would just be Ok...

I wish everything would be normal...

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Im still at the odds of writing here...

things that happened in the past month...

I guess Im just being lazy... yet again...

Monday mornings really SUCK... big time...

* does a Garfield *

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Oh well... I just have to wait for LIfe to slap me awake...

Hey Life... where you at?