.:: daemon

i miss talking to you...

i miss seeing you upfront...

i miss spending time with you...

stupid as it may sound,

but i was thinking about you last night...

wondering why everything became cold between us...

the answer couldnt be more obvious...

ive known the answer for quite some time...

but something in me, cant accept that...

im in denial...

eventhough i tell myself that its just nothing all the time...

i still deny the facts that you are what you are

and that the future will never be...

its been a couple of months already...

and im still hung-up on you...

i feel stupid most of the time

when i write something about how i feel for you...

i fear the backlash of being honest...

i fear the backlash of being tagged as an "illusyonada"...

well... i have to be honest how i feel...

well... i have the right to dream right?

* sigh *

how i wish you'd really know how i feel for you...

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i have a heavy heart whenever i see you...

i feel sad whenever i know you're just there...

because i know everything is just nothing...

especially now, when im about to lose my boyfriend to his career ambitions...

i guess in a few months time, im back to square one...

back to being alone again...