...

talks shit about a lot of people

because i have balls to stand up

and get right in front of their faces

...

i am unapologetic,

brutally honest

and fearless

...

this is what makes me more than ordinary

this is what makes me real...

leave it to me

apparently i was wrong...

i wasnt the strong-willed...

know-it-all guy...

i thought i knew how to handle things...

i though i knew how it is to 'love'...

apparently i dont...

i though i was always the victim...

now im a fiend...

the one thing i promised myself to not become...

sigh...

leave it to me to fuck things up...

=(

to this, i say im sorry...

post election thoughts...

may 10 2010...

the first ever automated elections in the Phil...

with majority of Filipinos taking responsibility for the

well being of their country, yesterday - i think was a huge

turnout for new/old voters...

despite the heat, unorganized handling of voters, voting location

(at least in my precinct) and rude (common) people...

i pushed on so i can vote...

a good couple of hours after the polling precincts closed, there

were already partial results...

i voted for GIBO...

it seems he's trailing behind the front-runners AQUINO and

* gasps * ESTRADA...

sad really...

but we HAVE to RESPECT the voice of the majority...

i opened my FB this morning, as with any morning =)...

lo and behold...

many are already sour-graping...

many are already expressing 'disgust' at the result...

i even saw one post this on his fb...

'I'm on the side of the losing election party. Wahahahaha.'

Now thats narrow thinking...

i think it would be better for us to 'support' the winning candidates...

and also, whats this i hear about people who DIDNT vote...

but are already complaining on the process and the results...

fuck off..

you dont have ANY right...

if youve only done your fair share then things might and possibly be different..

...

...

so i say...

lets stop pulling each other down...

stop 'complaining' and actually do something 'productive' about it...

do something 'positive'...

gawd....

ive seen enough 'people power' and revolt in my lifetime...

what i want to see now is 'progress' for this country...

looking back

ok...

see here...

despite all my drama about NO guy liking me...

well, i guess there's no truth there...

there are...

those who see me in a different light...

trust me to appreciate them...

i do...

i have this guilt whenever i unintentionally hurt peoples feelings...

anyway...

lately it seems that most guys who i have left 'hanging'...

have found someone...

it leads me to think that this is kharma for being too choosy...

for having too high standards...

true...

i do...

its no excuse to say, but ive always set 'HIM' as the basis...

'HE' is the standard that i compare guys too...

yeah, guess im not over him...

i never really was...

'HE' has everything that im looking for in a guy...

besides the physical attributes...

hes funny...

hes real...

hes humble...

hes dedicated...

and i think id feel safe with him...

the sad part is...

everything i feel isnt mutual...

holding on to 'HIM' hasnt been alot of help...

in meeting new guys...

in moving on...

i try...

believe me...

guess what im trying to say...

looking back...

i havent moved on...

yet..

i just dont know when ill be able to...

or who will be that one person to make me forget about 'HIM'...

* sigh *

oddity

i may sound bitter with what im about to say...

but its the honest truth...

on observation...

i wonder why some hot straight guys...

go for a little less than mediocre girls/guys...

i just dont get it...

cliche to say, it must be love...

oh pish-tosh...

our brains are wired to be initially physically attracted...

i get that...

so in the order of things...

i know where im leveled on...

but puhlease...

come on...

i personally know of two straight good looking guys...

who have far less than mediocre girl-friends...

one of the girls aint bad...

but far from his level...

the other one...

good lord...

lets just say she doesnt even meet the standards of what

is average...

read - fat, dark and so classless...

fine... im bitter...

this goes the same for guys who have ugly boyfriends...

gawd...

at some level i just cannot fathom the fact...

geez...

and i wonder why im single...

give me enough credit...

i guess i have a right to stand on my own soapbox every now and then...

...

...

its an oddity i tell you...

a strange occurrence of nature...

* bitter *