Baby...

There are so many things that I want to say... I can... but you wont just hear it...

There are so many things that I wish we could do... we can... but you just dont want to...

But you know what, I can take it...

I can take...

not being able to say the things that I want to say...

not being able to sleep beside you on a cold saturday night...

not being able to hold your hands, hug you or kiss you in public...

not being able to say I LOVE YOU aloud...

I can take all of those, if it means that I can be with you...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH that I can wait...

I have to wait...

Besides, ive waited for someone like you for years...

And if you need more time...

I can give it to you...

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And I just want you to know that Im just around the corner...

Waiting...

For that moment...

When everything will be normal for the both of us...

When we can dance to the tune of a love song where the rest of the world disappears and all thats left is you and me
without any care for the world...

Its been quite some time since Ive blogged.

Alot has happened...

Ive slimmed down (now evident in the loosening of my clothes)...

Ive met people... and burned bridges even before anything happened (which is a good thing i guess)...

Ive made mistakes...

Ive had realizations...

Ive crossed over...

All in one month.

Eventful isnt it?

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Life really has a way of playing with you.

And it sucks...

Just when you think everythings Ok, Life bitch-slaps you to next year...

waking you up...

making you realize that... hey, snap back to reality...

* sigh *

I wish everything would just be Ok...

I wish everything would be normal...

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Im still at the odds of writing here...

things that happened in the past month...

I guess Im just being lazy... yet again...

Monday mornings really SUCK... big time...

* does a Garfield *

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Oh well... I just have to wait for LIfe to slap me awake...

Hey Life... where you at?

March 02. Our seventh monthsary.

Unfortunately me and Bryan werent able to go out...

I wanted to... but he was struggling with his Mom and Dad about us.

A day before our monthsary, he told me that his Mom got a wind of one my text messages, my usual sweet ramblings of affection. His mom freaked out, thought about a lot of stuff...

It even went as far as his Mom started to read verses from the Bible to him. They exchanged some hard words. It saddens me to think that I caused a fight between him and his Mom.

But hey... thats one of the baggages that we have to carry especially being in "this" kind of relationship.

So... a week after. March 09. We were finally able to go out.

Though he still had the unresolved issue with his Mom and Dad, he really wanted to see me.

I thought he was just being sweet over the text about it... about him not seeing me made him miss me so much...

We met up at Greenbelt 3's 2nd Flr Cinema Lobby. I didnt see him right away though.I stood in the middle of the Cinema Lobby and there he was, with outstrecthed arms and a huge smile on his face. And he hugged and gave me a kiss on the cheek... in public... (not that I didnt want it...)

something I never thought he'd do...

After that hug... he kept on saying how much weight I loss... (its so nice to hear that from your baby...)

The sweetness didnt end there...

We were at Chimara's (i hope i spelled that right) counter line... and he was still hugging me from the waist...

I was floating on air at that time...

That would have been certainly enough for me...

Anyway I had tofu chips and he had a vegan roll... yummy.

In to Cinema 2 for 300 we went.

Before the movie started... he asked for a kiss on cheek to which I gladly gave him.

* sigh *, that night couldnt have gone any better.

Yes it could...

Im a touchy-feely person... a simple holding of the hands... is more than enough for me to feel loved and cared, kinda shallow... but hey thats me... all throughout the movie... he never let my hand go... the person on his right kept on looking at us... but that didnt bother him...

he definetly missed me...

After the movie, which was great by the way... worth the time, the money and would be placed alongside my all time favorite movies, we went for a walk...

We got around to talk about what happened with him and his Mom and Dad...

We also talked about him telling his ex-girlfriend about us and how his barkada is 100% behind him...

Im happy to say that he's accepting the fact that he's in a "different" kind of relationhip. Its strange to think that we got to seven months and that he's just accepting it now. I guess you just have to take it one day at a time; one step at a time.

We also got to his plans on working abroad... its sucky to think about the time when his plan will push through... just when everythings settling down...

I do have to accept it though... no matter how it hurts... guess I need to cross that bridge when we get there...

Ok the kid-gloves are off...

Know what... if you've got a problem with me, be "adult" enough to tell it right to my face.

Geesh... thought I could be honest with you * bitches * but as I
found out this morning, you cant even put yourself to be honest with me.

Damn * bitches *...

And as usual... I come out as the villain of the story...

* smiles * * evil grin *

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At least Im getting something good out of this whole hullaballoo...

Im FINALLY getting my privacy back...

This world is full of crappy people with some crappy shit...

ive been thinking about love...

been thinking...

how it makes my heart flutter...

how it makes me smile on the lowest of days...

how it makes everything ok...


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then i stopped...

and i realized...

i wasnt thinking about love...

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i was actually thinking of you...