irony

funny how the word gay is used to describe people like me

and yet we find ours 'kind' sad most of the time...

unchanged...

funny how time flies so fast...

people grow-up..

people change...

some get married...

some have kids...

some chase their dreams...

some become successful...

and yet i find myself standing in the middle of it all...

unchanged...

i seem to be stuck in this hole of contentment...

im not...

i feel helpless though...

because whatever i do, i just seem to miserably fail at it...

im no total failure...

i have 'small' achievements in life...

but compared to what MOST have...

im at the bottom of the pack...

and what ive achieved so far...

are but mere specks in the bigger scheme of things...

i am unchanged...

and i wonder...

when will i turn the corner...

i need change...

a drastic one...

i need one fast...

mistakes

i could cry with every mistake ive made but mistakes are there to remind us how human we are and how better we can be

- daemon

the good guy

id like to believe that good guys get what they justly deserve...

but the world doesnt work that way...

in this fucked up world, good guys finish last...

and commonly (borrowing something from Batman: The Dark Knight)

if youve been the good guy for a long time, you end up seeing yourself

throwing the towel and just turning your coat over and be the bad guy...

=(

i wish the world would just flip over and things would change...

i used to be a good guy...

and lately...

i dont know what i am...

* sigh *

the opposite of everything

i've waited a long time for someone i could fall in love with

i've watied for the moment that i could sing to you all the love songs in the world

you came and everything seemed all right

but now im afraid to say it

but theres a song playing in my head

and its not the one i expected that i would sing to you

the tears i would see are not the ones that i anticipated

and i dont know how to make everything alright