Im not moving... No Im not moving...

First heard this on MTV...
And on the radio...

The tunes quite catchy...

And if you read on through the lyrics... 
Tis got a nice message...

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The Man Who Can't Be Moved
The Script

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And you're heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And you're heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There on no hole in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

Dropping You

Slowly as [the] tears dry from my eyes
I realize
How much I’ve been holding on
But now I’m letting go
Of something I should have long ago

I’m dropping you, like I should
And I’ve never felt so good
Stopped chasing what could be
Moving on to what should be
I’m dropping you

I can still remember [when] you told me
How much you love me
Now I truly see
Through your eyes
That everything you said were lies

I’m dropping you, like I should
And I’ve never felt so good
Stopped chasing what could be
And started moving to what should be
I’m dropping you

There’s no point picking up the pieces
For a love with a lot of misses
No more room for second chances
Not even enough for second glances

I’m so done with you
No more feeling blue
I’m ready for something new
I’m dropping you

of infidelity, forgiveness and love...

as much as we say that we know how to deal with matters of the heart, there is really no guarantee that we can make our hearts behave...

and when it mis-behaves, we become illogical creatures...

all of us...

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infidelity.

the concept is all too familiar with me...

everyone involved should play their respective part in the situation...

for me...

the cheater SHOULD own up to his doings...

he/she does not have any right to put any blame on any of the cast...

the decision to 'dive' in to another relationship (sexual or otherwise) is solely on the cheaters head...

for them to turn the tables around, is a cowardly act...

infidelity is never bounded by age, gender, orientation or level of maturity... what they do about it whether caught or not can say so much about how they are as a partner...

the cheated SHOULD concentrate on healing himself/herself first before dealing with the cheater...

the cheated SHOULD accept that whatever the cheater did he/she did not have any part in why the cheater did so...

if there is a problem between the cheater and cheated, then things have to be talked over...

the act of committing a potential mistake to cover up a problem is just plain stupid...

the friends of both parties SHOULD standby on the way-side and be there to help either parties and trust and respect the decision of each party regardless of the circumstance...

friends have all right in the world to be over-protective...

they are our support system outside of our real families...

and as admirable their intent to guard their friends feelings...

it is equally admirable to trust and respect their decisions...

if one is in conflict with the decision, and that they need to voice out there opinion regarding the matter then it be best for them to express it in a manner that is not offensive to either party...

in this scenario, you avoid losing a friend...

in the case that the cheated has decided to be at peace with the situation with the cheater, then it be best for friends to be at peace too...

agitation would only frustrate the cheated...

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forgiveness and second (n) chances

forgiveness is a concept that is uncommon these days...

many say that they have forgiven, but haven't forgotten...

this, in my opinion isn't forgiveness...

to truly forgive, one must forget what has been done...

forget the act, but don't forget the lesson...

they are two different things...

forgiveness has to be given to those who deserve it...

in my opinion, forgiveness is for everyone...

regardless of the circumstance...

and I'm going to use the 'we-are-all-human' card here...

yes we are...

and neither of us are saints...

we all warrant to forgive and be forgiven...

to deny one of forgiveness is also denying yourself respect...

second (n) chances similar with forgiveness...

should be given to everyone...

everyone 'stumbles' down...

nobody is perfect...

but here's the tricky part...

this has to be given to those who deserve it...

how you'll know? well only those directly involved in the situation would know...

in this case, the cheated has to trust his/her instincts...

everyone else is playing on assumptions, perceptions and their own experiences to which may or may not be applicable to those directly involved...

if they are really friends, then one they, as i have mentioned, SHOULD trust and respect your decision...

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love.

it is a perfect imperfect...

it isn't really love if there were no imperfections...

trust.

the companion of love...

it is tested time and time again...

there can be no true love when no trust exist...

faith.

faith is the belief in trust...

it is the foundation of trust...

without faith, then there would be no trust...

"to love is to trust and to trust is to have faith..."

pcd and some...

so the new pcd album, doll domination is out..

so far...

im loving most of their stuff...

besides the two singles (when i grow up and what you think about that)...

three slow songs have captured the emo/romantic side of me..

Happily Never After

"[S]he said

No happily never after,
That just ain’t for me, because finally
I know I deserve better after all,
I’ll never let another tear drop fall"

Out Of This Club

"Baby won't you take me out of this club 
I wanna be with you 
Baby let me take you out of this club 
I make your dreams come true 
Baby won't you take me out of this club 
I wanna be with you"

and

I Hate This Part

"I can't take it any longer 
Thought that we were stronger 
All we do is linger 
Slipping through our fingers 
I don't wanna try now 
All that's left is good-bye 
To find a way that I can tell you 
I hate this part right here 
I hate this part right here 
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here"

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love it love it...

and though these songs are quite nice...

they pale in comparison to the emotions that flow from Chris Brown's and Keri Hilson's 
Superhuman...

that song is driving me up the wall...

its soooo good that it makes "single" people (read: me) feel that i have someone...

yes... its that strong... 

"You've changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman.. 
I feel so superhuman"

* sigh *

love is all around...

but i dont seem to have one to share it with...

* sigh *

stumped...

this week has been a very 'wait-for-it' moment for me...

i still testing the waters...

feeling as to how everything works...

the past two days have been sooooo slow...

glad that it picked up today...

the place is starting to warm up on me...

i dont necessarily adjust...

its just not me...

i dont want to lie to myself...

act as if everything is ok, when its not...

so far, it seems that everythings ok...

just a bit shy...

yes, im shy...

roflolcmeo...

but im stumped...

seriously...

theres no drama (yet)...

theres no issues (yet)...

theres no politics (yet)...

totally starting fresh...

just need to find my stride...

need to see how everything works...

a couple more weeks to a month...

* sigh *

lets see...

if this one will just be a small bump that i happen to trip on...

or will this be it...

god...

i cant even imagine myself lasting for a year more in this industry...

might eat my words a year after...

but im not holding my breathe on it...

animate me...

animated version of me...

well sort of...

more sketches to come...

curtain call (v2)

after much editing...

this is what i actually ended up sending to all employees in my (ex) office...

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curtain call...

* It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say – JM *

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I’m not one for goodbyes...

Never enjoyed them…

I have a problem with attachments...

And I have grown attached to a lot of things here, friends mostly...

And so the decision for me to leave Generali was a hard one...

I stayed for the people whom I "respected" the most...

I stayed not because of the job, nor the perks...

Neither was anything to be desired, seriously...

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I have been nothing but real, open and true...

I embodied 'what-you-see-is-what-you-get'...

And I appreciate those who did the same...

Thank you guys for showing me who you really are...

It gives me enough reason to know who to treasure and who to 'throw-away'...

You’ve seen the highest of my highs and the lowest of my lows...

You’ve seen the good, the bad...

and the ugly... well that I’m glad to leave behind...

I have never been ashamed to be me...

'Attitude' and all...

I have changed in all possible ways that you can think of…

In one way or another…

All of you have been part of what has shaped me...

In the one year and 8 months, I have achieved a lot...

It may not be work-relevant...

But I bet you, it's more important than work...

Way, way important than work...

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I may have caused friction...

But who hasn’t?

I was just vocal, never scared to say what I want...

Never scared at all…

To 'anyone'…

And remember…

That you have every right in the world to put them in their place...

To those who felt that I offended them…

Im putting my pride on the side-lines…

I apologize…

It's just who I am...

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'Live life, that’s what’s important...

Spread love, share the joy of friendship...

Find real friends’, drop the fakers and the haters, you know who they are...

Never let work define you...

Say what you need to say…

Be true, never lie...'

Words that I have learned to live by...

So far it’s working...

Why don’t you give it a try...

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As I said, I’m never for goodbyes...

To my friends...

So I say…

Thanks for the amazing memories...

Thanks for the friendship…

Thanks for being true…

Arrivederci, till we meet again... will be keeping in touch...

To everyone else, sayonara...

May the fates of destiny treat you as you deserve it...

To Generali Pilipinas, Good Luck and God Bless...

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so much for burning bridges... lol...

but i think i made a bigger impact with this version than the previous version...

* blushes *

curtain call...

I have been warned to never burn bridges…

I might find the need to cross them again, some day…

But I say, burn them…

There are bridges worth keeping…

And those that are worth burning…
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* It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say – JM *

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I’m not one for goodbyes...

Never enjoyed them…

I have a problem with attachments...

And I have grown attached to a lot of things here, friends mostly...

And so the decision for me to leave Generali was a hard one...

I stayed for the people whom I "respected" the most...

Those that deserve and earned respect...

Not those who demanded it...

I stayed not because of the job, nor the perks...

Neither was anything to be desired, seriously...

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I have been nothing but real, open and true...

I embodied 'what-you-see-is-what-you-get'...

And I appreciate those who did the same...

Thank you guys for showing me who you really are...

It gives me enough reason to know who to treasure and who to 'throw-away'...

You’ve seen the highest of my highs and the lowest of my lows...

You’ve seen the good, the bad...

and the ugly... well that I’m glad to leave behind * wink * wink *…

I have never been ashamed to be me...

'Attitude' and all...

I have changed in all possible ways that you can think of…

In one way or another…

All of you have been part of what has shaped me...

In the one year and 8 months, I have achieved a lot...

It may not be work-relevant...

But I bet you, it's more important than work...

Way, way important than work...

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I may have caused friction...

But who hasn’t?

I was just vocal, never scared to say what I want...

Never scared at all…

To anyone… not even those ‘superior’ in title…

Besides, it’s only in that they’re superior, just in a title…

Titles are nothing without respect…

Stripped off of their title, they’re just only ‘people’, to use the term loosely…

And you have every right in the world to put them in their place...

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'Live life, that’s what’s important...

Spread love, share the joy of friendship...

Find real friends’, drop the fakers and the haters, you know who they are...

Never let work define who you are...

Say what you need to say…

Be true, never lie...'

Words that I have learned to live by...

So far it’s working...

Why don’t you give it a try...

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As I said, I’m never for goodbyes... well at least to my friends...

So I say…

Thanks for the amazing memories...

Thanks for the friendship…

Thanks for being true…

Arrivederci, till we meet again... will be keeping in touch...

To the others, sayonara...

May the fates of destiny treat you as you deserve it... and don’t even bother...

To Generali Pilipinas, Good Luck and God Bless...

* Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends – FOB *

one liners...

"kiss me like its the last time, love me like its the first time..."

- from Cry (The Block) by New Kids On The Block

went online at 300am in the morning...

clicked mirc...

and there i was....

logged on to look for a quick hookup....

got a message from a certain someone...

not sure who it was though...

but if you are from there, as you said you are...

what are you trying to do?

blackmail me?

or let the whole world know my lifestyle...

hmmm

lemme ask

i wonder... why were you there the first place...

hmmm

anyway, who you trying to scare? me?

sorry... im out... everyone knows...

* rolls eyes *

strike one...

so tonight was a bust...

a failed attempt...

as usual...

go figure...

* fuck it *

feel the frustration...

feel it...

feel it...

a different friday

remember when the thought of friday brightens up your day...

i cant say that applies to today...

it is a friday alright...

but it is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo... boring...

its like my life-force has been drained of all the positivity...

goodness..

maybe im just hungry for something more interesting to do...

something exciting...

something totally different...

the dullness of sitting almost 8 hours staring at your computer,

shifting through different tasks...

its soooo getting old...

call me a rebel if you want...

but this desk-job thing...

its just not working...

how does a free-spirit become so entangled in matters that can kill someone with utter boredom...

give me rain, give me thunder... anything will do...

peace and quiet is good, at night... then again id have enough of that too...

i want to cause a ruckus...

i need chaos...

i just need something better to do...

* hmmm *

good lord...

an hour more and im out of this hell hole..

ill be so glad to see gym-folks and friends...

hay, gym.. the highlight of my day...

the savior to a different friday...

quotes...

"guys [that i like] can be compared to a strong rain...

theres a sense of 'comfort' and joy in getting voluntarily wet...

and yet no matter how good it feels...

you know that its gonna make you sick"

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and being emo goes on...

unexpected

knowing where you drew the line...

i agreed..

i shed tears...

but i agreed and went on with it...

thought that it would be easy...

after all, it always ended that way...

i just didnt expect that i would grow this fond of you...

to the point that im already affected...

about how things cant be better...

about how things cant be what i would have hoped it would be...

i wish i was cold...

not feeling anything...

this is that time that i miss most my non-emotional self...

i wish things could be simpler...

no more complications...

no more unexpected-ness...

trying...

been listening to Lifehouse a lot lately...

their song, Make Me Over has grown on me...

I love it soooo much...

totally can relate...

* sings *

"Im losing myself just to find a place in your mind...

im changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes..."

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here i go again...

trying to be what an ideal 'partner' is just so that you could notice me...

trying to show you what i could possibly offer...

but alas...

as with every chapter i start with my life...

it always end the same...

with me getting hurt...

with me getting the consolation prize...

or worse...

getting nothing...

not even a bruised ego...

* sigh *

when will i ever stop 'trying'?

its here... finally here...

the '-ber' months have finally arrived....

last quarter of the year baby...

theres a lot to be excited about...

from the anticipation of a new job...

new friends...

new 'potentials'...

the next four months will be definitely something...

and yeah...

countdown to 26 begins...

hell yeah...

another year is gonna pass...

as early as now, its not another one wasted...